What a feeling!

This is exactly how trollet feels today, but hey at least it is quite cute.

Understanding

Much has been said and written about understanding others and of course oneself. Can we understand another person, if we can't, how can we interact the way we do? If we can understand, to which extent can we do that? Can we say that we totally and compleately understand another human being or can we only understand to some extent based on what the person shares with us. What about fear? Someone is afraid of heights, someone else is afraid of cats, can we understand their fears if we haven't ever experienced something similiar.

Understanding someone else has much to with being able to put yourself in that persons situation, seeing the matter from that perspectives. Why is someone afraid of cats and someone else of heights? It is easy to say: come on up here, it is beautiful or hey, cute cats can't be scarry. Well they can be, to someone who is afraid of them and you can't appreciate the beauty of the scenery if you are fraid of heights. All you want to do is get the hell away from there. But if you manage to put yourself in the other persons perspective you might be able to understand what they experience in in that situation. This doesn't only concern fobias, fear of negative things but happiness, joy and love.

Life is full of surprised and unexpected turns. You have to hold on tight in the fast turns and let go when it goes slow straight ahead. It can be healthy to have strikt rutins and habits but it is also healthy to walk a different way to your job, tast e new kind of yoghurt, say hello to strangers, sing in the shower, sleep late in the weekends, let your friends convince you to do something rather crazy, be open to new things, listen to people, really listen to what they say instead of just nodding, let yourself make mistake and learn, be heartbroken and learn how to show it, laugh out loud and share happiness with others. It is also recommedable that you learn to de-code Trolls in their confusing way of expressing thoughts and emotions.

New week.

The wedding was a blast. The welcome champagne talk touched everyone to tears. Love was defenitely the theme, which it really should be at a wedding. The food was excellent. The conversations were interesting. The dancefloor was groovy and the wine tasted good.

Here trollet is with partner, looking all fancy.

The party continued until 7 am and this is what we looked after a few glasses of wine. All in all it was an excellent party. Sunday wasn't that much fun. Trollet was suffering.Monday morning she had to, well didn't have to but chose to, participate in an experiment. She got interviewed by a professional consult infront of an audience. Interesting indeed. She got a lot of good feed back. that is always nice, and one defenitely need som sort of ego boost once in a while, especially if you just feel like a lump. This week is otherwise just an ordinary week, unless saturday brings the group to enjoy a day at the juiciest-pool. We shall see. Would defenitely be fun.

Art à la Trollet

Art à la Trollet. So, what has she been up too lately. Well, swimming, meeting people, work, feminist party (Ladyfest), eating out, hang over, sitting by the river, reading and so on. Not much but yet a lot. Tomorrow she will attend a lady philosophy wedding, it will be both nice and interesting. Tonight a special lump from Helsinki might arrive, we shall see. If the lump comes trollet will be tired tomorrow, that is for sure.

The wind in Trollet's hair

Eventhough Trollet was in Turku she felt the wind in her hair, the excitement, the coldness, the warmt, the physical exhaustion and the satisfaction when it was over. It was almost like climbing the chinese wall. It wasn't that far away, that enormous, that cultural and historical, but it was still fantastic. Trollet went for the first time this spring in the outdoor swimming pool in pouring rain. The rain convinced others to stay at home, so Trollet didn't have to share the pool with that many other lumps. She loves the feeling of being in the warm water when the air is fresh and cold. She used to go outdoor swimming all winter long when she lived in Reykjavik. It made the horrible hang overs disappear and you simply feel like a total new person after a swim outside. Outdoor pools are always wonderful, but they are at their best in cold shitty weather. She will go there today as well. Today it is sunny though, so she might have to swim with many others. Oh well, she will enjoy it anyways.

Philosophy, eurovision and museums.

This is Göran. One of the most interesting men that trollet knows. Trollet had a long discussion with him friday night about philosophy of walking and traveling. What is defined as a journey? The difference between strolling around and being on the way to a specific destination. It made trollet think about the text she wrote about traveling, well just a short text. The text she planned to write her master thesis about, but instead she wrote about marx, alienation and sweatshop factories. Quite a difference. Göran is planning to write about walking and maybe about traveling. Trollet looks forward to reading it one day.

Yesterday bunch of people came to Trollet's place to watch the Eurovision, well we had too, mainly because it was in Helsinki. We could state that Finland didn't do anything too silly, as it was hell of a show. Good Good

Today Trollet and partner went to Turku provincal Museum, mainly to see Görans exhibition but also to stroll around. That was a nice change from the usual hang-over sunday. Then they went to Aboa vetus for a coffee in the sun.

Now it is time to watch icehockey as Finland is in the final. In all honesty Trollet isn't the slightest interested in icehockey. Instead she is wondering if she should write an e-mail or not? Should she? If she does, why does she? Why wouldn't she? We shall see. The mind needs to think while the lump can hang out and the unity just excist. It hasn't been a very well functioning unity lately. The mind seems to be on its own path while the lump is just there, hiding under the blanket.

The lazy ass Lump and the spinning around Mind

Trollet is getting over the biggest disappointment. Well you simply can't let the mind drown in sorrow. The unity has to drag the mind and the lump with her. The lump can't function without the mind and the mind is very lonely without the lump. Besides the Troll has a new plan as always, and this time a very professional plan. Yeah, it isn't a fun and exciting plan but at the moment it is the best plan she can think of. Of course she actually wants to travel and feel the wind in her hair, but maybe one thing doesn't have to exclude another.

The lump is smiling, the mind is in Laos, and the Unity wants to drink some wine. Not a bad collaboration. Trollet gives it 10 points. Enjoy the weekend.

Never fun to fail.

Alright.

So Trollet didn't get the job in Benin. She is frustrated, sad, angry, unmotivated to look for new job, happy that she got the answer so fast, preparing to be unemployed, tired and as a bonus she has a constant headache. Excellent.


The next plan might be to makes this little man understand that he is half finnish-swedish and not only spanish, as he now refuses to speak any swedish at all. Trollet will brainwash him. It might be her summer plan, as her current job really seems to end now the 31th of may.

So what else? Well the future seems to be very open. Trollet needs to travel, go somewhere new, have fun, relax a bit, and not be so bloody stressed all the time. Where to go? Anywhere really. Show her the money and she will go anywhere you tell her to go. Right..