Sometimes you can be so wrong.

Ok, so partner didn't understand. He thought Trollet had changed her mind. So what happened? Well suddenly he started packing all his things, even though they just talked about the fact that he can have his stuff there as Trollet will be away for some time. Nope. He packad all things and left. He was sad and pissed off. Trollet was just sitting there starring at him packing. Felt very dramatic. But then again her decision felt very dramatic for partner. Maybe this was for the best, that everything went so fast and dramatic. Wouldn't exactly be easier for him nor for her if he lived there and secretley hoped for them to get back together. Yes, it was and is Trollet's decision but still she felt very very sad. Who know when she will see him again, he is out of her life. Empty. The feeling is extremely empty and lonely. Luckily K was available and came over. Felt much better to have someone to talk to than sitting in the flat alone.

What will Trollet do now? Well first of all sleep but also keep herself busy as it doesn't get better sitting home alone. She needs time to be on her own, think and just relax a bit. She is so so tired from this and from so much else. Disappointments have been too many and too present. Feels like she can't take no more failures. When does it start to go uphill? Hopefully soon.