Confusing thoughts at night

The pure and well formed text didn't reappear last night. Not at all. Instead insomnia was present to teas Trollet. It is present way too often. She really gets tired from it. Her mind gets confused and forms itself in mixed emotions. Mixed emotions about lots of things. Last night she read about openness until 2 a.m and was simply not able to find calmness. Restless is teasing her, not so much physical restlessness but mental one. She is content at the same time as she wants to run. Run run run. Where to? Not sure, actually nowhere. Just an inner restlessness that doesn't seem to calm down. The mind shakes its head. Trollet looks confused while the lump is jumping up and down. Maybe this weekend will remove or suffocate the restlessness as Turku is filled with happenings, as it is UMF festival. Friends are coming from Helsinki. Everyone seems to be getting ready for the weekend. Trollet doesn’t even know if she will attend any of the concerts but she will be present in the atmosphere.