Run Trollet Run...

Trollet needs to leave the city, the country. She needs to get to Benin and hide. She won't be able to hide there very well.. but at least she will be far away Turku and people that drive her insane. Run Trollet run. In 36 days she will be gone. Great.

The mind is playing tricks, The lump is wanting and Trollet is banging her head against the wall. Not a very functioning unity. Not at all. can't we cooperate here, the mind says? No, Trollet says and runs. The lump is also running, but in another direction. Great.

Rufus and Trollet haven't been seeing each other lately, or well, yes they have met but they haven't kept each other warm at night. And they won't. Just end of story, that is all. They haven't agreed this, but Trollet just wants it to be like this. They will always be friends, so no harm done. That Someone is driving Trollet insane. She has no idea what is going on, and maybe better so. Just let it be. Let that Someone be. Maybe they meet before Trollet leaves, but probably not. Trollet is tired. Trollet is tired of being pulled in other people's messes. She has enough with her own, and her mind, that is playing tricks.

Trollet is not sleeping. She is awake at nights thinking about things and a silly lump. She knows that it is strange and really unnecessary as trollet and the silly lump will probably never meet, but the silly lump is still there, on her mind.

Go away from my head: the mind utters.

No, don't go.
Don't go.

Stay in my mind: the mind suddenly shouts.

Silly lump does no harm in the mind. Let the lump be there. Trollet wants silly lump to be there, on her mind. Silly lump is like a fantasy caracter, that doesn't really exist in reality. Just in daydreams. Sometimes Trollet thinks that she made it up. Maybe silly lump really doesn't exist.