Throwing morals out the window

Did she throw her morals out the window and desperately tried to find them in the morning. Running around the city wondering where the bloody hell she left them and at which point? Actually she did not. She kept her morals in her pocket, so they would poke her once in a while saying: hey we are here, don't forget all about us as you will need us, defenitely need us. Did she need them to remind her about their existense? Yes, she did. In fact she really did. She was ready to digg an enormous hole, throw the morals and their friends in there and put as much shit on so that they would never find their way out. But she didn't. Why did she need them? Was it so necessary to have morals, and so what if she wouldn't have had? Well trollet and someone realized together that burrying morals would be very fun indeed but would cause much pain. Pain for many people, and it is defenitely not worth it. Still after deciding this she got the urge to forget all about it and just go with the flow, but no. Is she now proud that she wasn't a complete bastard?

Shouldn't it be obvious, to not cause pain when u have the choice to not do it? One would think so. Sadly not always for the mind or the lump. Sometimes the mind tells trollet to: Do it, Trollet do it, and she does. Other times the mind is trying to talk sense to her when the evil lump has a will of its own. The lump just takes over the situation and draggs the mind and trollet along for adventure. She is not complaining. It is called life. But trollet can share this piece if information: standing in the window with tears in the eyes looking for the morals that got lost somewhere in the way is not a great feeling? Not saying; ups, shit, what did i do? Cause we always know, we know, we just decide to not care. We just want to put common sense aside and loose it. So one cant say: i didn't understand what i did. fuck that! of course one knows, one just decides to not care. So standing there in the window wondering where those morals went can be a shitty feeling as u know that you chose to not care, not care the slighest. Trollet is not talking about cheating, bur rather messing things up for others, but of course also for oneself. This realization stopped it yesterday in time. Surely she could have not cared, but the truth is that she does care, she doesn't want to cause Somone more mess than already being in. Easy for trollet to mess things up, pack her bag and go to Africa. Sounds fair? Nope.