Thoughts

Trollet is angry, sad, mad, and in between indifferent. They have talked a bit and ok, she can maybe understand a bit more of what he is saying. he is not a complete asshole..okey okey. He freaked out, too many big feelings at the same time.. alright, but why the hell react like that? Trollet is not an impossible being, she thinks of herself to be rather open. She would understand an emotional freak out and urge to be alone but she can't understand the way he handle it. Not at all. She is done being the understanding one. If you can't handle a freak out as a couple then there isn't much you can handle.

She can't plan a future with someone that is totally unstable even though everything in his life is going exactly the way he planned. So what the bloody hell is the problem? This is what he has chosen to do for a while, and now things are going exactly like that, and suddenly he can't handle anything anymore. Then it is time for him to be alone and leave trollet alone for a while. She doesn't even know what she wants from him anymore.. She doesn't know at all. She wants to be alone. Alone for a while. So it feels in this moment. In the next moment she might feel something else. Time will tell. She has a roller coaster in her head.

Shouldn't it actually be Trollet that is freaking out? Well on the other hand he doesn't even know half of everything that has happened during the last year. Too much, way too much. He knows so little after all. Maybe it is time for Trollet to freak out big times. Anybody willing to help her up after she falls? Kärä? Kärä has always been there after various freak outs. A juicy freak out took place after Iceland.. oh god those days. She knows that Trollet is good at hiding when it feels like the whole base you are standing on is breaking apart. Maybe it is time for her to hide. Find a cave and disappear.